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Monday
When one is disinterested in someting,every little excuse becomes the greatest most logical/reasonable reason. Tha's so crap.
I skipped coaching on sat morning, on the pretext that my cramps were still there when in actual fact, the cramp is quite bearable. I guess I do suffer from inertia to face those crazy ang moh kids who are just impossible to coach. Gawd. I've been there for 2 terms yet I still can't handle these little monkeys with grace like the other coaches and I've taken leave at least once in every term. That's not a good sign isnt it? So why the hell am I still trying to drag my blardy ass out on a sat morning?
Reasons to convince myself:
1. Its a challenge. I've got to learn to handle these monkeys.
2. Its additional cash though from my economic POV, the opportunity cost is greater.
I'm suppose to be paid better here but i'm not. And i think the reason is I'm not performing up to their standards. Alas. But I'm so not motivated to coach there! * dreamer got to go into self psycho mode* Rid the negative thoughts and press on!
Think big money big money!
School's starting. Gonna return to my routine life of work, school, coaching and lack of sleep. The only relief is i'm only taking 2 modules, that'll effectively free up an additional evening to breathe.
I'm losing alot of family time recently. Not that its entirely my fault, but I think dad's got a part to play too. He's forever with his friends at the coffee shop or roaming the streets, while I'm enjoying myself with someonelse. Poor mom seems like an abandon child. I can literally imagine her sulking while packing our stuff at the old flat.If only she can stop dilly dallying and throw everythin into boxes and stop dragging the whole packing process. Dilemma. To resume my role as a dutiful daughter or be forward looking to invest more time with someone for the future? Opportunities surface due to the 'right' timing. But my 'timings' seem to have gone off the compass.
Nevertheless, I still miss my cat.
1/09/2006|5comments [speak] 
Maybe there's some way you can stop making "X Comments" clickable? Otherwise abit distracting to have something that seems like a link but really isn't one.
And is that a Rent reference with the "speak"?
the x comments is for me to know whether anyone left a trail.not meant to confuse u.
