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Friday
All it took was a friend
who came and say "hey kid, something's brewing"
I deny coz i know its just platonic friendship
but people urged me on
and I succumbed to beliving the illusions
Now i suffer the consequence
of my ignorance and guillibity
All it took was for him to text
short or long
meaningful or not
care or tease
but it makes and breaks my day
All it took was a small gesture from him
and i know i'm no longer my own boss
i lose my soul my thoughts my reservations
my whole world is about him
All it took was a realisation
that all these was just a fable
that i wove with the aid of people who loved me
i don't blame them at all
really i don't
but i am wounded
and my heart sobs
All i want is peace
to recuperate in solace
to cry till the rivers swell
to wallow in self pity
But rationally
All i need is strength
To face this with defiance
to move on and love again
but honestly
I doubt my ability
to raise from the rubble
at least for years to come
9/16/2005|0comments [speak] 