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Monday
I'm really out of sorts today. Started the morning badly, but it picked up a little during the interview. Wasn't too bad an interview I think, at least the HR is arranging for my second interview tomorrow afternoon. But somehow, my mood swing decided to drop by for coffee and sent my emotions on a dive. Thank God that my little friend was nice and patient enough to see me sulk through dinner.
I don't know what got over me that i started lamenting about how messed up my life is, how lost i am. I barely know this little friend for a month plus...or perhaps two months, but that is too short a time to start unloading all these worries and complains to the person. Well, at least, if i were in his position, i'll be shocked. oh well. what's done cannot be undone. I'd better get a grip on myself.
Speaking of my this little friend, well, he's a very nice guy, surprisingly mature for his age (mind u, he's younger than me but so much more mature), sensitive and patient. Oh and he's kind of intellectual too. Not the book smart kind but intellectual. And I always wondered how such a nice guy is still single ? Good gracious. If i've got the guts, i'll probably fall at his feet. Too bad i don't. Am just glad he's my friend.
In retrospect, honestly, i shouldn't have complained so much for the past weeks. No doubt i was jobless and was at the verge of desperation. but He sent this little sweet boy along to help distract my mind and saved my sanity. He also arranges opportunities along the way and of course, He gave me the chance to meet with some really nice people (HR or agencies etc.) Not forgetting that He also showed me how much love i have from my friends. Those who worried for me, cared for me, looked out for me. Like i've said before, i am so loved that the only love that i don't have is romantic love. But i figured the love i'm getting now is way more overwhelming that wat romantic love can provide ( sounds pretty much like a self consolation). Whatever the case, I truly thank God for what he's arranged for me to help me sort of pull through till now. At least i have a contract job waiting for me though i'm secretly hoping for better/permanent jobs. I shouldn't be greedy. I appreciate what i have now and though more is good, its not obligatory. So GOd, Thank you!
8/22/2005|0comments [speak] 