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Friday
Merry X'mas!
In "Love actually", christmas is a time to say out ur feelings, be totally honest to yourself and to those that you love or loves you. So i guess its a good time to pick up my pen *figuratively* and drop some lines in this almost vanishing dreamerland of mine.
Firstly, I'm very grateful to all my frens who still bothers to drop by this space to check whether i'm still on planet earth and to check on my sanity. It shocked me when people ask why i've not been updating, its warming when people ask if I was alright coz i'm not writing. Thank you people, its all these little care and concern that makes life worth living.
Ever since my return, my life have been in the dumps. To most, i'm probably just wallowing in self pity, but coz its my problem, to me, its the biggest problem that can ever exist. Human beings are afterall narcissistic and self centered isnt it?
I'm an escapist but I"m trying not to be. I'm not that strong and i'm not that courageous. I know that the problem will exist no matter how i hide or dodge but I also know that i need a good break to soul search, to pull myself together and to once again,pick myself up and press on. For those who understands and graciously gave me the space, i thank you for it, for those who couldn't understand and was hurt by what i did, i'm sorry. But don't worry, the deadline i set for myself is almost up. I'll be back in action soon, for as long as i can last.
Alright, enough of me.
Thank you for all the wonderful x'mas memories and gifts!
12/26/2003|0comments [speak] 