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Friday
Now that i re-read my past three entries, i do think MX is right. I sound like i'm having split personalities. haha! But to tell you fankly, that's the kind of emotional roller coaster that happens Everyday, and even within the day itself! And that's why i cant believe that i've been here for barely 5 weeks because the amount of experience that I have definitely supersedes this time frame. Its really amazing how much things i've learnt and how much wiser i've grown. and of course how much bruises and blood that came along with this experience. How much mental psyching, mental torture and crying that went into these. Its awesome!
But I guess, i'm one lucky fella and am in no position to whine nor complain. I had a good conversation with FB this afternoon and I voiced out my concerns and worries. He was very reassuring and in return, told me his worries. Firstly, he worries that I will not survive the harsh winter. In his words," if you can survive through from end of nov to december, then i can feel relieved and assured that you have totally adapted to this place". Secondly, he worries that i might overlook things and get cheated etc because i have no working experience hence do not know the treachery in the business world plus i'm in the world's most complicated and dangerous pithole. Therefore, he engaged his friend's help to guide me along. But still, he emphasize that the final decisions still lies with me though these guys are around to help me and advise me. I told him I am trying to learn as fast and as much as I can but I hope for guidance and his reply was," No one can teach you. You have to feel for it yourself". He's damn nice isnt he? Plus, he told me to be brave and try whatever I want to. Should it be a wrong move, we'll work together to right it and should it fail, he'll take the full blame coz that's his responsibility as my boss. I was genuinely touched.
I do think things are looking up and I'm probably getting a better feel of this place and the people around me. My 5 weeks here hasnt been wasted. I did my job. Its sunshine after the rain!
Cheerios!
8/15/2003|0comments [speak] 