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Monday
I had a horrible nightmare last night. So bad that it caused my twisted,numb and painful arm in the morning (dont ask what i did to inflict such pain coz i have the vaguest idea as well). Anyway, in the bad dream, i had a ticket to some performance at the Esplanade but i simply kept losing my way. It felt like Alice in Wonderland,except that i was running and swimming very fast and continuosly till i was so absolutely exhausted. But somehow, the esplanade still was out of my reach, i was exasperated, but i continued running, continued swimming, i just wanted to get to my destination and be in time for the performance. I could feel the tears welling in my eyes but i grit on and kept running running running.
According to books and amy and other frens, when one dreams of themselevs running, it means that they are very stressed in real life for eg a pressing deadline etc. If i were to follow this line of thought then the esplanade must be my thesis. I'm indeed trying very hard to produce something but i simply cant seem to get any ideas, any inspiration and worse still, no direction. I really and feeling quite helpless here. i suppose this dream is afterall what i'm going thru.Yikes, din realise it so frightening. sigh.
Btw, i just went for a run ard sch today. good for me! its been donkey years since i last worked out. But this time round, i've got that round of fats on me to motivate me. heh heh.
I just muddle headedly agreed to be a myanmar fren's guarantor tomorrow. Oh dear.i'm scared. I dun feel safe. how?
2/17/2003|0comments [speak] 