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Thursday
"Troubled Chartered is playing catch up by doing too little too late, says Taiwanese giant"
(Streats, 30th Oct 2002)
That headlines pretty much sums up my plight now." Troubled dreamer is playing catch up by doing too little too late". If only i had studied harder for the past three years. Oh well, there's not point in regretting now. I cant cry over spilt milk anyway.
My lecturer treated us dinner tonight. Albeit a cosy dinner but the inside news he divulged basically pumped up my blood pressure and my stress level. It made the already bleak future even more depressing now. But i've been slogging the entire semester. I swear i put in lots of effort and now, its only up to my intelligence quotient and fate to decide the rest. Says who that i'm carfree? says who that i'm taking things easy. Bull shit! I'm freaking out, just less the peeing in the pants at night and going into occasional fits.oh man! how can i be cool when i've worked so hard? Its bluff if i say i dun mind failing. Crap! then what the hell am i slogging for?i do yearn for a 2nd upper at least. what's the whole damn pt of getting a third class? what the hell am i burying in the notes for the whole blardy semester? I want a decent payback! u reap what you sow. High time to prove this statement! I want my grades! i do not want to drop out! i do not! i don't want! No way! No no no...............
10/31/2002|0comments [speak] 