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Friday
i was won over by the devil's advocate today. argh! CHeryl!!u tempt me! well, but again, i was willing to be tempted. ok so wats this horrible deed....i forsaked my studies for movie. yes, i watched a show ("slap her,she's french"). Not highly recommended. its cheap humor, not worth the money but for muggers like cheryl and myself, anything is a relief so we weren't too bothered. anything non intellectual is tonic for us.
And today was totally unproductive. i woke up real late, went to sch in time for lunch and then its stoning at my notes till 6 when we decided to get a life. dat sums up my wasted day. if i dun get out of this lull period, i'll never catch up.
In any case, i'm extremely grateful to have this group of study khakis. without them i wld probably have quit sch(like several of my frens). No wonder pple always say " take it easy". hons life has given me a whole new outlook of life, abt failure, abt support. abt adversity and abt strength. I keep telling myself i will be a stronger person by going through all this, the results are not adequate in measuring what i've learnt. I'm glad i'm given this opportunity to put myself to the test. Wat that dont defeat me will make me stronger. I have the will to carry on but will and ability dun usually converge.
Thanks fang for your concern and all those encouraging words but u must understand that it took a lot for me to believe in the existence of love. I never did believe in love, i mean romantic kind of love,and now i am back to square one. I never had faith and now i back to not habouring any faith. call me jaded, call me cynical, dats what i am.
9/20/2002|0comments [speak] 