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Monday
What do u do when u feel obliged to attend something that u are not quite keen but know that ur fren has put in lots of effort to put up? i need advice. i mean, there are these few frens that i have and treasure very much but sometimes, i just feel tired of tryin to make it for their programs. there are even times that i ignore their msges or whatever when i feel myself breaking down. i try and i sincerely appreciate their effort but sometimes i just need to rest and need solitude ( which ironically i seldom find).
I like spending time with myself, to collect my thots, to rest, to talk to myself and well, basically i need to be alone and i find that this need seems to be increasing. maybe i dun have much frens to hang ard in sch nowadays thus have cultivated the habit of being alone. but i cant tell these pple this right? its quite rude ...i feel.
oh dear, i dunno what's happening to me. this certainly aint the "athlete's solitude" that chew alwiz says. it feels more like hermiting myself n to live in a faraway land crafted by myself.
ps* and my parents aren't helping either. how i wish i live alone...sometimes... most of the time.
Anyway, i figured out today that my runny nose might be caused by the increased dust level in my neighbourhood due to the demolition of several blocks opp the road. this nose is irritating me! its making me groggy half the time i'm awake and keeping me awake half the time i'm asleep. even my chest is starting to hurt due to the blowing of my nose. gosh. i think i might need to visit the doc again but i dun feel like, lest they make me go on nasal drops again. oh and anyway, i still havent gone for my blood test and havent finish my iron pills. a patient like me is hard to cure.
8/12/2002|0comments [speak] 