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Monday
I'm such a loser. always get tounge twisted when i'm nervous. i hope i wun bungle up my interviews in the future. damn.
and i've been increasingly distracted since last wk.y....hmmm....perhaps i'm getting emotionally involved (one sided as far as i know) somehow and rationally i know its a terrible act but irrationally, i think i'm falling deeper. sigh. dunno wats come over me too. and going for concerts din help much coz the lyrics of love songs are swimming in my brain. ahhh!!!!!!! issit stress that's causing this feeling of vulnerability? wat happened to my strong and carefree self. i cant believe i told joyce "y look so hard for mr right? shld instead be looking for mr right now...sooner or later, the now will drop by itself" (idea quoted from 'The sweetest thing"). i'm changed, i know and its scary. i'm learning about my new self too.its unsettling and i'm freaking out. no one can help me and i know that. i need to stay objective abt this whole change of midnset and seek a new path for myself. i need to learn to handle myself.yes.dat shall be my new goal for myself.progress....that's the way it shld be, i shld be celebrating it. =)
8/26/2002|0comments [speak] 