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Sunday
next week this time i will be in myanmar already. i dunno whether to be happy and excited or not.oh well, but whatever must come will come so why fret.
i've been having weird desires recently. its on issues that had bugged many but not me. or rather, i chose to deny its existence or been suppressing it. Its coming on really strongly these weeks and my mind has been totally consumed by it. its eating into me and i do not know how to handle it. somwhere in me is telling me to face it coz it will not going away but i cant find the courage to even vocalise it to myself. i even feel ashamed at thinking about the issues. Whats worse is, such is a passing phase of life and even if i turn my back towards it, the society, my parents, my family, my frens and everyone including myself will forcibly turn me back. I resist but how long can my resiliance last? can i actually fight it? oh god, help.
5/05/2002|0comments [speak] 