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Monday
How do u define family?
I couldnt answer huayi. not that i can now but at least i have found a new light to this word. I am beginning to appreciate it from another perspective.
People grow up, they change, they become thinking individuals. and somehow if u get disconnected from them, its difficult to get connected again. its then that we start regretting and tries desperately to hold on to memories. what done cannot be undone, what's gone will be gone. then why do we still cling on to the past? we always whine about missing the past eg. we used to play together last time but now everyone is so detached, my mom used to bake tarts for cny but now she doesnt, i missed my grandma's cooking blah blah blah, but its history.why do we never learn to treasure today and stop living in the past?
this sense of disconnection and isolation is apparent in this festive season. its kind of ironic to see pple spending lots of effort in either maintaining or creating a new relationship with one person on vday yet totally disregard or even detest an occasion where a little effort can lead to many rewarding relatioships/kinship. What happened to us? why do we no longer feel belonged to this social construct called family? Do they mean nothing anymore? I do not believe in the bullshit of everlasting love and everlasting friendship coz pple change, i change too. but there are some things that society says shldnt change,such as blood ties. blood is (supposedly) thicker than water.since we exist in this society shouldnt we adhere to the rules?
i shld stop wallowing in lost loves but treasure and devour new found kinship. i miss my cousins(young and old). i am going to start knowing them, something i have never done before.Everyday is a chance for change.
2/18/2002|0comments [speak] 