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Thursday
In the first place, you will have to open up and be exposed before you can feel. and by doing so, u are like disarming urself and increase ur vulnerability. hence when the beautiful and sweet feelings are replaced by fear,pain and angst, you cant control this 'wonderful' action of feeling. i think to feel is too much of an indulgence that can make one lose sight of reality. iTs a fantasy. or maybe i'm just cynical. i think i've made up my mind. its too painful to feel. i want to shut myself in.time is too precious to lose. i cant afford to waste my time finding the courage that had forsaken me to overcome the shit that i m feeling.its enuff. to those that have dedicated entries after entries, nights after nights of encouragment, i am sorry i'm such a disappointment and such a failure. i m really sorry. fang, i cant say those words.i'm defeated.
sigh, was actually going to write someting about "Black Hawk Down" but well...dun think i am in the right mood to do it. in summary, its a nice war film that has almagamated several of the better ideas from other war films eg Apocalypse Now( I LIKE!!!!) and Three Kings.
1/24/2002|0comments [speak] 