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Tuesday
Happy New Year everyone!
i was just wondering how i will be spending that precious moment when the clock strikes 12. well, i dun seem to have any answer still. i was just peering over the parapet and staring into space. i din noe was it Him or the devil that was accompanying me.oh well, wat a way to spend that treasured moment.
love is a hurting game. and once again, i've got to struggle. for the past mth, i did things that i swear i would never even give it a thought. i will never step into life bookstore, i will not be persuaded to attend church, i will turn my head away when they talk about Him. i will laugh into their faces, i will jeer at them. but something happened. i actually did all that i wont do. i think i was starting to seek Him. but disappointment and hurt never fails to appear at these critical moments. For the first time, i felt something beckoning me to church.i did all i could to be there but, i can only say that it was just another blow. Why? why do u entice me into it and then to find myself in the same shit again? why?
i hurt coz i loved. i doubt coz i trusted.i am disappointed coz i had expectations.
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