|
|
Saturday
Company politics!curse them! after working for them for 4years, they still doubt your loyalty. c'mon,its not as if the company is paying me exceptionally well. there are better offers that i've rejected. goodness, that's how they treat me!and this XXX person that i really dont like is so enthu about me quitting to the extent that i dun even need to provide a mth's notice. what's the matter with these pple. is the working world really that unscruplous and wicked?now the company is accusing me of boycotting them coz i turn down an assignment that is paying me lower than the pathetic pay i have now. isnt that abit too bullying? seems like my job is in a precarious situation now. i must really start scouting for another job. and this has to happen when i am going to be really unemployed upon my graduation. what shit luck!
i din talk to grace today. i din expect myself to be so mad at her for the work thingey(stated above). I mean, how many times will u allow ur fren to trample on ur toes and u still forgive them? i really dunno. but as far as i remember,this is the 2nd time in less than 6mths that she railed at me coz of work. and I swear that i really did not do anything intentional to sabo her. why? why am i like dat? why am i not trying to please? what happened? am i wrong to feel this way? but again...who is to judge. i acknowledge my anger and disappointment but how should i deal with it? i choose to think that she vent her anger on me (however remotely the event is related to me)just because she's tempremental. i choose to believe that she was really trying to help me/us by speaking up in front of the bosses. i choose to trust that she always put my welfare before hers. so i try to empathise with her and let those rantings pass. but why is it that this time i seem to have turned away from all these faiths? why am i being so touchy about the issues?why am i even bothered to think about it? ....Heaven knows.
1/19/2002|0comments [speak] 